...Be Jesus...

 

One day I found (or it found me) the quote from the book The disappearance of the Universe, where Pursah was saying that Jesus was asking for Holy Spirit’s interpretation of everything until he finally couldn’t see the error anymore and started seeing everything from Holy Spirit’s perspective. Suddenly I realized what this journey and guidance is all about- it’s about asking for the reinterpretation of everything, and Jesus was doing the same. It felt like I haven’t noticed this in the Course before, but as this quote clicked in my mind, I started finding the quotes even in the Course where Jesus always tells us to ask for the reinterpretation. It’s everywhere in the Course, almost in every section. And then it seemed logical even from the physical point of view- if you overlook something several times, soon you stop noticing it- as if this overlooking is the signal to your mind that that thing isn’t important enough. So, this helped me to get the idea of how this works. And following Jesus’ example felt even more inspiring.

Jesus also says in the Course that we react only to our interpretations of the situation, not to the situation itself. Lately, I started noticing that whenever something happens, whenever something new comes up, I automatically perceive it as an attack- as if I am attacked. Then I feel insecure/unworthy and so on, I get angry and I react from that anger. I had situations when I reacted from the place of anger and then when I talked to that person, I found out that they didn’t have any intention to attack me at all. So, I was wrong and I was really reacting to my interpretation of the situation. I also started noticing how much my judgements hurt. I was reading quotes in the Course, “My judgements have hurt me, and I do not want to see according to them,” “I make all things my enemies, so that my anger is justified and my attacks warranted. I have not realized how much I have misused everything I see by assigning this role to it. I have done this to defend a thought system that has hurt me, and that I no longer want,” “Reality brings only perfect peace. When I am upset, it is always because I have replaced reality with illusions I made up…I am always upset by nothing,” “I hold the past against everyone and everything, making them my enemies,” “My thoughts do not exist, and so they mean nothing,” and I realized that I do this to myself- I choose to think and believe the thoughts that are actually painful- and I thought that it’s insane to think these thoughts when they hurt so much- why am I doing this to myself?

And last night this insight came to me- I can interpret everything in a loving way as effectively as I do the opposite; I can interpret that the person is actually coming from love, and I can believe and respond to this interpretation. So, whenever something comes up and I feel like I am attacked, I want to step back and remember that I have another choice- this person may be coming from the place of love. So, I want to ask Jesus- how can I interpret this in a loving way?

Whenever I asked Jesus for the reinterpretation, I always received an answer. Maybe not in the same moment, but in a day or two I was just receiving the thought about the same situation that helped me to see differently and just receiving that thought felt like a miracle in my heart and I felt so joyous that I felt more and more inspired to ask for the reinterpretation more often.

Eternally grateful <3 


Art 'Eventide' by Yongsung Kim